FREEDOM. Trying not to think of the money I’ve wasted but instead I feel good knowing my donation could clothe the #Duggars for a year. #beforeandafter

FREEDOM. Trying not to think of the money I’ve wasted but instead I feel good knowing my donation could clothe the #Duggars for a year. #beforeandafter

0 notes, July 23, 2014

Purging my life before I move also means finding forgotten gems like this dress from #Tobi πŸ‘

Purging my life before I move also means finding forgotten gems like this dress from #Tobi πŸ‘

0 notes, July 23, 2014

Mama’s visiting so of course we’re making homemade veggie spring rolls. 😊

1 note, July 22, 2014

So I’ve got this creepy new roommate who just stares at me from the other room… πŸ‘½ #newaddress #chchchanges

So I’ve got this creepy new roommate who just stares at me from the other room… πŸ‘½ #newaddress #chchchanges

0 notes, July 22, 2014

Stuffing my face & catching up with this beautiful human after an amazing @modoyogampls flow class ✨ (at Wakame-Sushi & Asian Bistro)

Stuffing my face & catching up with this beautiful human after an amazing @modoyogampls flow class ✨ (at Wakame-Sushi & Asian Bistro)

1 note, July 21, 2014

Crushing every day πŸ‘ŠπŸŒ™πŸ‘«#latergram

Crushing every day πŸ‘ŠπŸŒ™πŸ‘«#latergram

1 note, July 21, 2014

Definitely not achin’ but it’ll do. Talking about how much we miss @shareeeeek & @lord_demonock πŸ˜«πŸΊπŸ’©πŸ’• #sundayfunday

Definitely not achin’ but it’ll do. Talking about how much we miss @shareeeeek & @lord_demonock πŸ˜«πŸΊπŸ’©πŸ’• #sundayfunday

0 notes, July 20, 2014

My adopted son, the most handsome fur ball to ever howl at a siren. πŸ˜‚πŸΆπŸ’•

My adopted son, the most handsome fur ball to ever howl at a siren. πŸ˜‚πŸΆπŸ’•

2 notes, July 20, 2014

Today while teaching my sequence for the first time I realized that I’m in the exact right place, working towards the best goal. I am SO excited to be able to share this passion and have the tools to take on the sacred title of Teacher. ✨ #ryt200

Today while teaching my sequence for the first time I realized that I’m in the exact right place, working towards the best goal. I am SO excited to be able to share this passion and have the tools to take on the sacred title of Teacher. ✨ #ryt200

2 notes, July 18, 2014

These two πŸ’• (and my derp face.) #dercabin #flashbackfriday

These two πŸ’• (and my derp face.) #dercabin #flashbackfriday

0 notes, July 18, 2014

thoughts

I (still) don’t know if I’m ok with always being the excited, overwhelmed with love, complement giving partner. I realized I linger in bed in the mornings because I get the most affection out of the half-asleep man in that moment and I cherish it so much. I still screen shot any (otherwise) trivial text that has words of love or encouragement.

It’s not that I don’t know I’m loved - and maybe I’m just more insecure with it than expected - but some days I just ache to hear an off-the-cuff comment of adoration or declaration of love… Something to indicate that I too make someone’s heart swell. I don’t like worrying that it’s not the case, that my quirks have become nuisances or that I’m not as great as first believed. I fear this more as I’m about to move in… into someone else’s sacred space, knowing that I can be a tornado of a roommate and an imposing presence to have around all the time. We’ll have to find that balance.

So maybe I’ll pull back, maybe I can alter my nature temporarily to recede into the shadows. To guard this fragile, agitated heart that feels at odds with my chaotic brain, both of which seem ready to betray me at any moment.

I don’t like these feelings and I try not to stoke this uneasy fire and am taking steps to lessen the other burdens of my life (quitting a job, downsizing my belongings, more yoga, starting meditation) in hopes that less stress will help it all. But for now, I wish for nothing more than better communication and bear hugs.

4 notes, July 17, 2014

Playing with my favorite chocolate buckwheat granola and the new #partypartyapp by @abeautifulmess πŸ‘

0 notes, July 17, 2014

To die for HH deviled eggs at #tinydiner with @katyakeane. Love my friends & working at this great establishment ✨

To die for HH deviled eggs at #tinydiner with @katyakeane. Love my friends & working at this great establishment ✨

0 notes, July 16, 2014

$5.20 // kamsahamnida! πŸ‘ (at United Noodles)

$5.20 // kamsahamnida! πŸ‘ (at United Noodles)

0 notes, July 16, 2014

One of those days πŸ™Š

One of those days πŸ™Š

3 notes, July 15, 2014